Walking Off the Buzz

"When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me."

I can't believe how long it's taken me to grow up. And I might not be totally done. It actually took a dose of blatant reality to shake me out of my naive fantasy land.  I should have known all along; I should be conditioned from years of the same pattern to realize that amazing things dont just happen. Things don't generally just go the way I'd like them to on their own.

I've wasted too much time laboring under the assumption that things that are "supposed to" happen, just will. That going out there and asking for it is too aggressive, is too self centered. That's the mindset of a weak person, of someone who is ok with being walked all over. A child.